Friday, April 13, 2012
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Saturday, April 23, 2011
I could be spending more time with the Lord, trusting in Him, having more patience, and being content with my situation. I really miss Okinawa. I know the Lord is here too, but it seems as though there are so many distractions in the way. It was easier when I was on a little tiny island, away from so many people just "Keeping up with the Joneses". I am not saying that everyone here is like that...it's just that I've seen so much of it since being here. I am grateful to be near family and friends, but, frankly, I am going through culture shock. On top of that, I am without a house, living out of a suitcase, and that's been adding to the challenges.
No matter what my circumstances though, God is still God. And I will find peace in Him.
I've learned that it is easier to trust the Lord when you are forced to. I had to trust the Lord in Okinawa because I had no choice with Jamin being deployed while I was pregnant. I had to fully depend on the Lord. Here, Jamin is with me and we are in a sense "free" to do whatever...I have to purposely depend on the Lord and not give in to the illusion that I am in "control" of how I carry our my day or week.
It has all been spiritually challenging...it sucks leaving a church that you are totally in love with. Jamin has been patient and keeping me accountable so that is a blessing.
We will be moving into our new place at the end of June, so we'll see how all of that goes. My prayer is that God will continue to be the focus of my life despite the efforts of the enemy using the world to distract me.
Friday, February 4, 2011
Monday, December 20, 2010
I haven't really blogged since Jamin got back (understandably) but things have been going well. It's a blessing to have him back again. Here are some quick updates:
Thursday, December 9, 2010
It was September 11, 2010, (my due date), and I couldn't sleep. I wanted to go to church, so my mom and I tried to go to bed early. I couldn't sleep, and at 5:35 a.m. (September 12, 2010) my contractions started. These contractions were more "complete" than before – I had some before, but I'd have more pain on one side, and they were irregular. These new contractions were strong, even around my hips and back, and were 6-10 minutes apart. I was REALLY hoping that this would be the day!
I decided to try to sleep since I had heard that you should always get your rest. Sadly, I couldn't sleep and decided to call my Doula, Angela, at . for advice. Later, my contractions were 10 minutes apart and I called Angela again at . Angela suggested that I shower, and the shower helped me relax. After my shower my contractions shortened to about 3 minutes apart and I tried to wake up my mom. She didn't believe that I was in labor even though I told her I had had contractions for hours. Maybe if I would have screamed she would have believed me :)
Angela arrived at my house at . and I was talking well between the contractions. Angela said I didn't look like I was in labor between contractions but she assured me that I was in labor since I kept asking, "Am I really gonna have a baby?". I was in doubt since I had so many painful symptoms for a few weeks prior. I swayed, stood, and breathed through each contraction. I couldn't talk during the contractions and I hated sitting or lying on my back. My contractions slowed to 6 minutes apart, so we decided to walk the stairs to loosen up my pelvic muscles. I walked up 17 small flights of stairs and we used the elevator to go down when we reached the top floor (I couldn't walk down the stairs because I was getting charlie horses that way-ouch!).
At around ., my contractions got stronger and my mom offered us some fortune cookies. I opened up my cookie and was shocked by its message: "You are capable, competent, creative, careful. Prove it." Talk about the PERFECT message for someone like me going through natural labor!
At . we decided to walk more flights of stairs. My contractions were stronger and about 6 minutes apart. After my walk, I leaned on my birth ball for a little while and I was getting tired. Angela rubbed my back while I tried to lie down and get some sleep. I got up at . to use the restroom and started getting chills. At . my contractions were a minute long and my mom continued to ask when we were leaving for the hospital. "I don't want her to have a baby here!" she would tell Angela :) Even though I had consistent contractions for 12.5 hours already, I was still in doubt that I was actually going to have a baby!
At ., we finally left for the hospital. It was 13.5 hours after my contractions started and I was glad that I could wait so long before going to the hospital (I didn't want them to "rush" my labor...little did I know that there was going to be NO rushing with this labor). Angela, my mom, and I were in one car while Anna (who was also pregnant and due in November) followed (I asked her to help with pictures and communicating with Jamin). The ride wasn't too bad, but it was very bumpy (those Okinawan roads!) and that didn't help the contractions. The Orion Beer Festival was going on, so we hit some traffic and we got to the hospital at . At , I was in Triage and they started EFM and took my vitals while I was standing (I refused to lie on the bed). The EFM showed that River's heartbeat was strong and she was well oxygenated, so they took it off. We could tell that the nurse didn't believe I was in labor because she kept saying things like, "if you are admitted" and I was laughing and mingling between contractions. The nurse examined me at . and I was 6-7cm dilated and fully effaced, she was shocked. :)
At ., I was in the labor room and they made me take all of my earrings out (that took while). We went over my birth plan and they let me walk around in the hallway. I got to Skype with Jamin out there because the Wi-Fi worked (it didn't work in the labor room). I kept on laboring and doing different positions with the ball, squat bar, and whatever else was around me. I did everything but lay on my back...I was so uncomfortable that way. There was a point when I was "dancing" on the bed but the nurses told me to get down :)
At . I started to get the urge to push. My water still had not broken and at they did another exam and told me that my cervical lip was still all the way around and that River's head was still high. This meant that I couldn't push since it could cause swelling and she would never get out except through C-section. The one good thing was that her heart beat was super-strong during my labor so they didn't have to "do anything" to me. I didn't want them to break my water because it could have added stress to River. So far, my birth plan was going as planned. Jamin was on the phone, but then took a break to get dinner.
At . my contractions slowed down and I wanted to sleep, but couldn't. I think that this is when I started to shed some tears. I was exhausted since I hadn't really slept for about 40 hours. About an hour later, I tried to go to the bathroom, but I couldn't make it, so I got back to the bed and just squatted. At about ., my water kind of leaked. They put me on oxygen since I had to "pant" to hold my urge to push. I was totally confused and frustrated because I wanted to push so bad. I hadn't planned to NOT push! I had planned to PUSH!
At about ., Dr. Papson came in, checked me, and told Angela that my baby was sunny side up (posterior position). It was a good thing that I wasn't on my back because I would have had awful back labor. It was ironic that River was sunny side up because I tried everything during my to prevent her being in that position by watching my posture...I guess you can't prevent everything. After this I started to experience the hardest part of my labor which revolved around the fact that I was not allowed to push. Since my cervical lip still had not opened, I had to keep on "holding" my pushes...which seemed impossible. I remember that I moaned a lot and my inner "mama bear" came out. When an urge came, I would stare into Angela's eyes as she coached my panting. My mouth was dry because of the oxygen mask, but I had to have it on or else I would have passed out from the panting. My poor mom was praying and trying to encourage me. I was at the point where I wanted them to do something, like give me something just so I could push, but there was nothing they could do. I just focused and prayed that River would come soon. I was determined to do all that I could in order to prevent a C-section. I remember I wanted it silent during each contraction and I even told Jamin to "please, shut up" on the phone :)
At around ., I got some urges to push that I absolutely could not hold back, and I felt like I was tearing. "Angela, get the doctor! I feel like I'm tearing!" I told her. The nurses came in and checked me and said, "I see a head!" and I was thanking God! We all thought that I was going to end up with a C-section. Dr. Papson came in and she said the words that I had been longing to hear for HOURS, "Ok, honey, now you can push". I pulled myself up into my squatted position and was SO PUMPED about finally pushing and gave it all of my might. After the first push I believe that River's head started to appear and they let me feel her head. It was one of the coolest feelings in the world and I was ready to push again because I wanted to meet her so bad. I gave it another push and the doctor told me to lay back...I started to lay back and Dr.Papson said. "Honey, I REALLY need you to lay back now!" . I was squatting so low and there was no room between me and bed for River to come out. When I leaned back I felt her come out of me. She was born in the water sac and it broke as she came out. River Eden Hien Bailey was born at . I cut the cord (which was SO cool) and they placed her on my chest right away. She had so much hair and was crying so well. I was thanking God for my healthy baby girl.
After a couple of minutes I started to detect that something was wrong. The doctor said, "Page Dr. Mimimsky." She then said it again, "Page Dr. Mimimsky 911". One of the nurses started to massage my stomach to get the placenta out and get my uterus to contract (that pain was worse than the labor). Suddenly a flood of people came in and I then felt lots of pain on my stomach and things being shoved in me. I had bad postpartum hemorrhaging (due to my uterus not clamping down (uterine atony) and the doctor had to get a small piece of my placenta out with some forceps. She was also trying everything she could to stop the bleeding. I just stared at River and focused on her. When I wanted to look and see what was going on, Angela was at my side, reminding me to just focus on River. My mom was squeezing my hand and praying. I was also praying that God would spare my life so that I could be there for River...I really thought that I might die. The doctor asked me if I wanted pain medication as she was working on me and repairing my tear and I was like, "UH, yeah!". They could have given me cocaine! River was born and the only reason I refused drugs was for her, not me.
They got the bleeding under control and found out that I had a 2nd degree tear, which was common for first time moms (River also came out facing the wrong way and holding her hand up to her face so that didn't help). I refused an episiotomy to prevent a 3rd or 4th degree tear. They had given me River again after they took her vitals (agar score 8/9-good job girl!) and swaddled her. She was already sucking on her fist when she came out so I had a feeling that she would nurse right away and she did (it's still her favorite activity to this day). I had really bad chills and was very pale from the loss of blood (about 1600 milliliters), but I was just thankful that was alive for my baby girl. I recovered well and didn't need a blood transfusion, so that was good. Jamin was on speaker phone the whole time while Anna was talking to him and sending him live pics and vids on my iPhone. As I look back, I can say that I had a positive birth experience. I didn't do anything during my labor that I regretted and my birth plan followed through. Most importantly, River was healthy and that's all I really wanted. I was really thankful that my mom came and that I hired Angela as my doula. I was also thankful that Anna could be there to help me communicate with Jamin. I wish I didn't hemorrhage but that was just something that happened and I can only be grateful that I recovered quickly. I remember right after having River telling myself that that would be my only child but after a couple hours I was ready for another one :) Labor is amazing in so many ways and thank God for making me a woman so that I could experience it...even if it was 25 hours long!
Friday, October 15, 2010
Sunday, October 3, 2010
About 3 weeks ago I gave birth to my precious daughter River. This post is an update on life after baby. I will post my birth story as soon as it's completed...I am still gathering the info from everyone who was there.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
Tomorrow is my last day as Children's Minister at CCO and I'm ready to go into the next season called "motherhood". I was blessed with the opportunity to head up VBS (which was awesome, thank God) and Sunday School. What I loved most about my season as Children's Minister was getting to know the kids, meeting new people in the church, and working with the leadership team at CCO. I loved knowing that my church was led my real, genuine, and godly people. I pray that I can find the same kind of people when we move back to the states.
Friday, July 16, 2010
My Birth Plan
I would like time to discuss every suggested treatment or intervention with the right to give informed consent or refusal after such discussion.
Please do not ask me if I want any pain medications during labor. I wish to give birth naturally without drugs and medications.
-I do not want to be induced or augmented.
-I would like to avoid a c-section and have the time and opportunity to deliver using natural methods.
-I wish to avoid an episiotomy and would like taking time to push or waiting for the urge to push.
-I would like vaginal exams to be done only upon my request.
-I request a hep-lock in lieu of an IV placement.
-I would like limited/intermittent fetal monitoring.
-I would like the freedom to move around, shower, drink, and eat during labor.
-I would like the doctor to avoid the use of forceps or vacuum extraction.
-I would like local anesthesia to repair a tear if needed.
-I would like to use a mirror to see the baby being born.
-I would like the chance to feel the baby's head when she is crowning.
-I would like the cord to be clamped and cut after it has stopped pulsating. I would like to cut the cord. If I am unable, I would like my mother to if she is present.
-I would like the baby to be placed on my chest right away for bonding and I would like to breastfeeding immediately.
-I would like to rub the vernix into my baby's skin.
-I do not want routine Pitocin to deliver the placenta. I would like breastfeeding to naturally deliver the placenta.
-I would like the baby to stay with me at all times.
-I wish to delay the Vitamin K shot and eye ointment for 1-2 hours after birth. I do NOT wish to give the baby the Hep B vaccine.
-I would like to avoid pacifiers, bottles, and formula because I plan to breast-feed exclusively.
-I would like the evaluation to be done while the baby is on me. For evaluation procedures that cannot be done with the baby on me, I would like them to be delayed a couple hours after birth. I would like to give my baby her first bath.
-I would like for the lights to be dim and room to be quiet unless music provided is playing in the background.
-I would like there to be photography and the birth to be recorded on video since my husband is deployed.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Friday, June 18, 2010
SO, today I went to a Lunch n Learn by Chisaibums to learn about CDing (cloth diapering). There were a bunch of really sweet moms there who were very informational. I decided to blog about this to help me wrap my head around everything I learned.
Here's a breakdown of what I gathered:
-pre-folds: an absorbent cloth that you fold and place in the diaper to soak up everything; you can layer these, sometimes they can bunch up
-diaper cover: used with a pre-fold or insert/pad, is waterproof on the outside
-AIO cloth diapers: all-in-one diapers-they include the insert/pad/liner (usually attached) and are easy to use
-pockets: some CD's have a pocket that you have to slip the pre-fold/insert/pad into-some mom's find this more work
-wet bag: a waterproof bag for your used or un-used CD's
-there are TONS of different CD's out there...use a whole bunch of different kinds or stick with one brand, it's up to you
-there are organic, natural, and synthetic CD's-I prefer organic or natural material touching the baby, the outside can be synthetic
-cotton and bamboo seem to be the best, they soak up more and are not as irritating to the baby
-if you want your baby to feel "dry"-go with a synthetic material touching your baby; if you are potty training and want your child to feel "wet" so that they can know when to go or not, stick with a natural material touching your baby
-fasteners: you can have velcro (attached to the CD), snaps (attached to the CD), pins, or plastic snaps that act like pins
-to prevent velcro from snagging while washing, you can buy big velcro pieces and stick them on the exposed velcro while washing; some CD's have a place for you to tuck the velcro when washing
-they even have re-usable wipes, they are like little cloth wipes that you apply solution or distilled water to (either by soaking or spraying); newborns should stick with distilled water for at least 2 months-less chemicals and irritants on them)
-you can't use Desitin or regular detergent with CD's-they have natural bottom balms for the babies that are CD safe and detergent should be free of dyes and perfumes (it's better for the little ones anyway)
-wool covers help keep your kid extra dry and protected-wool adjusts to the baby's temperature so they are not too hot or cool
-CD's save money (although a big investment at first), are better for the environment, and are better for your baby's health (less rashes and irritation)
-it seems like there's a lot of washing with CD's so I'm not sure about the water/electricity costs...you usually line dry so you save money there
-you can reuse and resell CD's and if you have a bunch of kids, you can save a lot of $ :)
-as your little ones grow and there "waste" grows, they have disposable liners that make clean up a lot easier; they also have diaper sprayers that attach to your toilet to make clean up even easier
-some moms use disposables when traveling and overnight use-that's up to you
I think that's all I can remember for now. There have some CD's off base and I got a 2 pack of diaper covers since they were on sale. I don't have any experience with CDing yet since River isn't born but this is the route I'd like to take. I've re-vamped my baby registry since I got a better idea of what I wanted from touching and feeling the CD's at the Lunch n' Learn. I think CDing can be intimidating but the extra work seems so worth it to me, just like exercising, healthy cooking, buying organic when I can, and re-using my shopping bags...it just makes sense. I hope that my blog post helped anyone who was interested in trying out CD's and I hope that I have a good CDing experience once River is born!
Wow...when Jamin gets back he's gonna have a lot to learn. He has 9 siblings so he got disposable diapers down to a T but cloth diapering? He can do it :) I'll send him this blog post to give him a head start :)