Perspective

Well I'm finally in my 3rd trimester! I'm sleeping like crazy (note that it is about 3 am because I slept from 6-9 pm) and I'll probably get another 8-10 hours in the am hours. My sleeping schedule is whack but I guess that's what happens! I miss going to church Wednesday nights but I've been passing out to sleep. Growing a baby takes work! I'm surprised that I can still make Sunday mornings (of course I almost always sleep the afternoon and night away on Sundays too).

In other preggo news, my friend Anna got me a fetal heart monitor as a baby shower gift and it's been a blessing. I'm supposed to count my baby movements but when River gets really "chill" it's reassuring to check her heartbeat. I know that professionals say that to be careful because patients aren't "trained" to hear heartbeats but it's such an obvious sound to me that it hasn't been hard to pin-point. River's got a loud, strong heartbeat...thank God :) Another neat thing about this monitor is that I can record River's heartbeat on my Garageband and send it to Jamin. They also say that you can record the mother's heartbeat and play it on a CD to soothe the baby after she's born to keep her calm (since that's what she's been listening to for so long).

Alrighty, now for non-preggo stuff, I really miss Jamin. It's been a challenging week with my car dying twice and having to lug things up and down to my apartment. I know Jamin would be here if he could but that's just life. God has him somewhere else right now. It's challenging and frustrating at times (like the car not starting when I have to be somewhere and just packed it full of stuff for my photo-shoot with Kerry Mills) but there are always blessings to count. Sometimes I wonder why two people so in love have to be apart so often but I guess that's just life. I mean, the fact that our love for each other is so great is a huge blessing in itself so I guess there's not much to complain about. I have a precious girl in my belly, I'm taken care of with shelter, food, health care, and an amazing church. On top of that, I have an amazing God and heavenly Father. These are the things that I have to remind myself when I'm trying not to have a breakdown. I firmly believe that perspective can make you or break you and perspective comes from what you fill your heart and mind with. If you fill your life with Truth, Truth will guide your perspective. Yes, we have our moments, breakdowns, and cloudy days but we're human and the awesome thing is that we don't have to merely rely on ourselves to keep us sane. There's someOne who's got it...He understands life, He created it! And I am thankful for that.