Just Me

It's late and I should be trying to go to bed but I'm very determined to prep my newborn kissaluvs. It's also just me (as it has been for most of my marriage) so I decided to blog. Sometimes I get a little lonely but my talk radio, podcasts, Pandora, and best of all, Lord Jesus, keep me company. I can't wait till Jamin gets home...I can't imagine what it will be like when we get back to the states and we're together for more than 7 months straight...we've never been together that long before. I have friends who miss their hubbys when they go on weekend trips and all I can think of is how blessed they are. I am not bitter, I am truly happy for them...being with your hubby is just a blessing. Jamin and I have learned to take in all of the seconds that we have together. Deployment puts everything in perspective and you don't have time to take each other for granted. I miss that man. He's my best friend and soul mate.

I finally finished Ina May's Guide to Childbirth a couple of days ago and I feel like I can give birth now. Not like I am a master at giving birth, I just feel more confident, hopeful, and encouraged. It was a slower read than my other books but I loved all of the information and research that she provided. A must read on my pregnancy book list. She just came out with a new book on breast feeding but I don't think I can read it in time. I am now reading Dr. Sears' Baby Book and Vaccine Book and of course the the Word. My breakfasts' with Jesus and His Word are something that I hope to keep up with the new baby. I have friends who get their daily Word in during breast feeding...maybe I'll do that :)...we'll see.

My mom is coming in 2 weeks and I'm actually kinda looking forward to it. Yup, you read correctly. God's been helping me to be more compassionate towards her. My grandma just visited her and my mom shared with me the struggles she had with her mom. It opened my eyes to why my mom is the way she is and reminded me that I just need to love her. I wrote a long, good, bit, in my journal last night of how I need to seriously step it up and soften my heart for my mom. Lord help me...I've said this many times and the enemy always attacks. I was reminded tonight, though, that no matter what my situation is, my God is bigger than that. The battle is the Lord's (1 Sam 17:47).

Well, I should go...the newborn CD's are about dry and I need to put them in River's room. I also need to drink more antacid (warm water+baking soda, completely dissolved) because my heartburn has been killer these past 3 days...

God Bless and if your hubby is home, give him a great big kiss, a hug, and just thank God he's with you.